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15 March 2006 @ 07:44 pm
I got a new tripod. Not exciting to most, but squee causing to me. 54" of solid camera holding perfection. This was my birthday present to myself, because dammit. I deserve it.

Now to add to my lense collection :bwa haha hahaha hahahahaha!:

J went and looked at an appartment today. Unfortunatley it smelled like dog piss. This is okay, there are other appartments. I still like the one in Chicopee, but he thinks it's too far from the kids. If we could find that appartment where he wants, life would be lovely. I am so proud of him for going today. It's a step toward our future.

I :heart: my honey bunches.
Current Mood: artisticartistic
11 March 2006 @ 11:36 pm
to treat you the way you deserve to be treated.

true words.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
11 March 2006 @ 09:05 am
Pooped. That's all there is to say. I am POOPED!

I have to take one of the cats to the vet with mom, so I am up waaaayyy to early this morning.

Sleep, sweet, blessed, wonderful, life giving sleep. I shall return to you shortly!
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
10 March 2006 @ 02:21 pm
My website is almost done! Yay! The galleries are the only really *big* thing left to be done. And the about me page, but gah- I'm SO not extroverted enough to fill that part out comfortably yet. Talking about me to me (such as here in my journal) is fine - Selling myself to other people makes me want to run and hide.

J and I have been working on it for two days now. Computer dorks of a feather flock together. I'm rather proud of us.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: heater man - it's frickin cold
09 March 2006 @ 12:02 am
Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: none
07 March 2006 @ 08:33 pm
deviantArt like a mad fiend. I can't wait to get out and take new stuff. I tried getting more snow shots the other day; but I've been a lazy ass and haven't uploaded them yet. I almost know they're going to suck, why torture myself?

Jenn does remember me, YAY! It'll be awesome to get together with her and Brandi. We can catch up on all the gorey details of each others lives.

Grandpa is being a shit. I took a disk with some of my better work over today. He had one nice thing to say and then had to show me Tia's stuff. Which isnt Tia's stuff, she just hosts it on her website. The pictures he's talking about HE and Grandma  took back in the 50's. But Tia's are sooo much better. It's not about T's work being better than mine, it's about the fact that she has pictures of Grandma up. I'm sorry Grandpa, but she's just  not coming back. I know you loved her, but she's gone. Dont get over her, but dont stop living your life either. And quit fucking starving yourself. I'll shove lunch down your throat if I have to.

I cant wait to get moved and working again. Sitting around the house is driving me insane. I havent felt this useless since I broke my foot. Gah.

Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: aerosmith - pink
06 March 2006 @ 06:05 am
The search for the elusive flower ends!!!

It, is a geranium. I'm not sure what type of geranium - but it's a geranium.

And no, I still havent slept. I tried though. I swear.
Current Mood: geekyUBER NERD!
Current Music: nin - the hand that feeds
06 March 2006 @ 01:02 am
on lj again; I cant sleep (I know I promised honey, I'm sorry). I think I found someone I knew in junior high. I havent really seen anyone from Jr. High or HS in YEARS. I was a little bit suprised to find someone on here I'm pretty sure I know.
I hope she is who I think, I'd like to get caught up.

I think I'm going to take pictures tomorrow. Depends on how I feel when I wake up. I'm thinking I might rob my cookie jar and go to Empire; or just stay home and see what I can do with the lighting in here. Make the cats pose or something. I need to get more shots edited so I can add them to deviant.

I need to remember to go pick up boxes. I want the weather to clear up for one reason only. Jo can come get her junk out of the garage - thus providing me with access to my junk so that I might toss more of it out. I didnt realize how much stuff I had till I started playing the moving game.

I decided that I'm going to start job hunting when J gets the appartment. It just makes more sense than to start sending resumes out now. I'll have an MA address on my resumes, a local phone number I can use.. all that jazz.

Josh gave me good news on the car front tonight. His boss is buying out one of the dealerships in town - J and I will be able to get an SUV cheap because the new owner is going to switch brands. Closeouts are GREAT.

I was writing last night. Free form, I think? I havent written in so long it's not funny.

 Sleep eludes the weary
restless wanderer running
dark knights praying at
ladies bedroom doors
swing shut on the face of
gloom and doom fills my

And off to bed I try once again to go.
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Jack Off Jill
05 March 2006 @ 02:40 pm
It started raining - so rather than taking the dog for a walk I spent some time with the treadmill. Oh.My.God. I am so out of shape.

It's set for a medium grade incline. I walked for 10:30 at 3.2 mph.

I think I'm going to die.

If V-ron says it's okay I'm going to start treadmilling everday. Get my porky butt in shape before the move.
Current Mood: exhaustedPooped!!
Current Music: Metallica ~ Nothing Else Matters
05 March 2006 @ 01:17 pm
I stayed up late last night working on the web project J gave me. I'm pleased with the results; even if I cant get the listed links to work properly. I think once we start putting serious time into our projects that I'll get much better at this. Right now I feel like I'm lacking imagination; probably due to how new I am to web design.

I'd like to get out and take a new set of pictures, but with the weather the way it is and my pocketbook lacking funds - no go. I was hoping the snow would get really thick so I could get some good winter shots. Instead it's already melting and everything looks muddy. Blah.

Mom is concerned about my weight. Sitting around on my ass for the last month has packed it on. Bad. She brought it up this morning while we were eating breakfast. She's right though, I am gaining too much weight. My face is a mess. I just feel blah all the time. The whole not sleeping thing is getting bad too. I finally went to bed at 2 something this morning. Slept till noon. Odly enough, I still feel exhausted and could easily go back to bed.

I think I'll go take the dog for a walk.
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: stp ~ big empty